Fantasy.
Let me live in this fantasy for a little bit more.
The fantasy that seems too far to reach,
yet too close to not to.
Mata bengkak.
That moment bila kau stress sangat tapi tak tahu nak ngadu dekat siapa.
Sebab takut kau akan ganggu life dia,
Takut dia annoyed dengan kau,
Takut orang tahu kau sebenarnya tak kuat mana pun,
But mostly takut orang... takut manusia.
Need somebody,
But too scared to say it.
Idk.
"Kau patut jumpa orang. Risau aku dengan kau ni"
"You should go out meet people. Real people."
I'm scared of people. I scare people away.
"90% of people are nice, don't be."
"And smile more. Your smile is infectious. Look what you did to me."
The thing is, I lived this way, this introvert way for 23 years. I can't change drastically. And like you said, "Let it comes naturally."